.....But you probably guessed that, right? Because when do I ever get around to writing when I am not? Its been a while though. Not, a while since I was sad, but a while since I have written. This is mostly because I no longer feel particularly safe here on my blog. I don't know what I can do about that. Maybe nothing at all. But a couple of weeks ago, when I was really as sad and low as a very sad low thing can be, I found I simply could not blog about it, just could not bear to, and instead resorted to writing an e mail to myself. At least I didn't reply to it. That would have been strange.
And now I am STILL sad, or maybe again sad, because I have not been totally miserable for all of that time, indeed I have had some nice times on and off....but sad I am. Very. Grieving, bereft and a little bit lost. Wondering if I will ever be actively happy again, fearing that the best days are over, all the good times past and gone.
I am not growing old gracefully it seems.
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Maybe you're clinically depressed and need to see a doctor? I don't mean to lecture you, but I know that if a sad mood lasts longer than a couple of days and there's no particular event to have caused it, then there's a possibility of depression. Don't worry about the blog - just take care of yourself! xo
ReplyDeleteThanks hun, but I don't think I am depressed. My sadness has reason....I am just not writing about that! x
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear about your woes, albeit in code. You can send them to me in an e-mail if you think it will help. I can read, delete and we can never speak of it again, or we can speak of it. Just let me know. Love kxx
ReplyDeleteI've left a tag for you on my blog.
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